For (h) how shall I go up to my father, and the lad [be] not with me? lest peradventure I see the evil that shall come on my father.
(h) Meaning, he would rather remain as their prisoner, than to return and see his father in sorrow.
Related Commentaries of Genesis 44:34
Genesis 44:34
34 For how shall I go up to my father, and the lad be not with me? lest peradventure I see the evil that shall come on my father.