Job 9:35 [Then] would I speak, and not fear him; but [it is] not so with me.
Ver. 35. Then would I speak, and not fear him] I would come boldly to the throne of grace, and freely pour out my soul into his bosom. If he meant that he would maintain his own cause against God's proceedings (as some understand it, grounding upon Job 33:6-7), he was questionless in a very great error, and the flesh had got the hill of the spirit.
But it is not so with me] So, how? so as you imagine, Non sum talis, qualem me esse putatis (Vatablus). I am no such one as you take me for, viz. a hypocrite; I am not so self-guilty, say the Septuagint: or thus, It is not so with me; that is, I do not find God answering my suit; for I am still scourged and frightened, so that I scarce know what I say.